my favorite quote.

"Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God's grace and your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God's grace."

amazing lecture

So, I just came out of my NT lecture and I wanted to post this while it was still fresh in my mind.

When Christ died, we died with him. We were put to death. Therefore, since we were dead we need to put to death our flesh, and earthly nature.

Colossians 3:5
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.

When Christ rose from the dead, we were risen as well. We're alive. Therefore, we need to set our hearts on things above.

Colossains 3:12-14
Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

And sometimes it's not fun to put things to death. It's not easy to be compassionate, kind, humble, gentle, patient, forgiving and loving. But that's when we need to go back and think about what Christ has done for us.

We obviously can't do it on our own.. and thats where God gives us strength.

Colossians 1:11-12
being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[d] to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light

When we do realize that, and when we do live by that, we need to realize that it's all God and we're just willing participants. If we were on our own, we'd be in big trouble.



God is good.

your love never fails.

you make all things work together for my good.

my favorite tv show.

i LOVE modern family. i look forward to watching it every week.

my favorite song.

josh wilson savior please mp3 | lyrics

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Savior please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can
but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone
God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior please keep saving me

Savior please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am
because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

30 days, 30 posts.

I saw this on my friend's tumblr and I thought I'd copy her.

Day 01 — Your favorite song
Day 02 — Your favorite movie
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Day 04 — Your favorite book
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

more than skin deep.

I get hurt easily and I'm optimistic. It's not always the best combination. I often find myself waiting for people to come around even when they're long gone. I find myself even more hurt when they don't come around. I'm a lot more sensitive than I think I am. I try to act like things don't matter to me but they always seem to linger in the back of my mind. When friendships, relationships don't work out, I always wonder what I did wrong.. even if I know there's nothing I did wrong. I always feel like it's my fault. I have this habit of putting up a strong front, I want to be invincible, I don't want anyone to mess with me. Sometimes, I wish I could be more real with myself.

relationships.

The people I encounter, the relationships I build, the friendships that break apart.. they're not fully in my control. No matter how hard I, or the person on the other end tries, to mold or even mend this relationship, it doesn't always go the way we plan it. Of course no relationship is perfect, there's misunderstandings and sometimes we screw up- it's nothing that clear communication can't fix, but sometimes friendships, relationships just come to an end. It just doesn't work out. Who's fault is it? It's not mine, it's not yours. That's life. It happens.

reaching deeper.

When the laughter fails to comfort
When my heart aches, Lord You'll be there.

grace.

Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God's grace and your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God's grace.


Thank you Jesus.

best sandwich ever.

A few days ago my friend texted me saying we needed to check out Langer's for their #19 Pastrami Sandwich. The restaurant was featured in the Food Network program "Best thing I ever ate." She also checked out a couple reviews on yelp and decided it was worth a try so she brought me, as well as two other friends, along for the ride.

I was surprised to see that Langer's, located on Alvarado and 7th, was in fact that one White people restaurant that I've passed by tons of times on the way to Ktown from La Crescenta.



Thick cuts of pastrami, cool crunchy light cole slaw, home made russian dressing and swiss cheese between two pieces of soft rye bread... a m a z i n g. I don't think I'll ever be satisfied with my usual subway ever again. I can't even find the words to describe this experience but I strongly encourage everyone to at least try it once. You will not be disappointed.

It's a bit expensive, $15 per sandwich, but I think it's worth it. Parking kinda sucks and it's in a super sketchy neighborhood but it's all a part of the Langer's experience.

It was an accident.

Today I killed my mom's cactus.



(He/She?) It was against the window in front of the sink when it happened. I was washing the overflowing stack of dirty dishes. I didn't mean to. I hope my mother doesn't mind too much.

i love bernard.

This past weekend i took herro kirry (hello kitty) back home and brought a new friend- Bernard.


Bernard says Hello!

Bernard has been quite popular this week and he seems to be getting along with everyone..





Bernard is a great bear.

grateful for change

Better That We Break - Maroon ...

I'm obsessed with this song. Haha.

So, after doing the picture survey thing (last entry) I've been pretty emo thinking about how things have changed so much. Haha, I know I'm a drama queen sometimes.. but still. It's so crazy cuhs while I was in high school it seemed like it was going to be like that forever and I couldn't wait to GTFO, no joke. But now that we're all out of there, I realize how good it was. I miss all the little things we used to do.. Fish taco/$1 Scoop Tuesdays, Awakening + Everest on Wednesdays, Crazy unproductive leadership meetings on Saturday mornings at Burger King.. hahahha. It's sad how those all those fun times are nothing more than memories now and we've all grown to be our own separate persons in our own separate worlds leading our own separate lives.. :(

But, I know that living in the past will prevent me from enjoying the present so I'm going to share about how I love/am super grateful for what I have right now.


My 3 sisters that keep me grounded. I can't believe it's ONLY been two years.. seems like forever.


My little brothers that are growing up way too fast. I'm so proud to be your sister :) And, my mom and dad who welcome me home every weekend and treat me as if they haven't seen me for months. Hehe.


The girls I look forward to seeing every Friday. You guys make everything worth it.


Being able to study what I want to..... hahaha. No, but seriously.


Amazing new friends.


Amazing old friends.


My roomie for the past 2 years and hopefully for the next 2 as well. You've seen every side of me and you still want to live with me and be my friend. You're crazy. :)

"At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us."

-Albert Schweitzer

my life in pictures.

A picture of you in your room.


A picture you don’t remember


A picture of you very drunk


A picture of you with a parent


A picture of you on your birthday or favorite holiday.


The youngest picture of yourself you can find in digital form.


A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.


A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.


A picture you edited to make yourself look more attractive


A picture of you at a night you regret.


A picture of you showing off a new hairstyle.


A picture of you truly being yourself.


The most recent picture of you


A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous


A picture from a time in your life that’s over but wish it wasn’t


A picture of a time in your life that’s over but you couldn’t be more glad that it is


A picture of you with your oldest friend.


A picture of you with your newest friend.


A picture of you when you were anything but happy


A picture of you you had no idea was being taken.


A picture of you where you were a different person than you are now


A picture of you in a swimsuit, whether you love it or loath it


A picture of you on vacation.


A picture of you with someone you love


A picture of how you’d like the world to see you


A picture that describes how you’d like to spend everyday


A picture of a time when everything was changing


A picture that makes your heart smile


A picture of one of the best nights of your life

you won't relent.

I don't want to talk about you
like you're not in the room
I want to look right at you
I want to sing right to you.

second wind.

Most people never run far enough on their first wind to find out they've got a second. Give your dreams all you've got and you'll be amazed at the energy that comes out of you. - William James.


I'm going to push and stretch myself more than I've ever been pushed and stretched before. I don't want to look back at the end of this semester and regret.

goodbye winterbreak.

I'm starting school tomorrow and I've got a bunch of mixed feelings about it. I think I've become way too comfortable with being home and just seeing people that I want to see. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against anybody but I'm just not too excited to jump into seeing a million people a day. Call me crazy but I think I'm going through a phase where I just don't want to be that social. I just want to be with the select few that I'm comfortable with and I don't want to deal with putting up different faces or watching what I say. Am I the only crazy one that goes through this?

Maybe its because I know there are unspoken things I need to face. I don't know what to expect with this semester. I've been spending the past few nights staying up and over analyzing the best and worst scenarios that can happen. I know it's so dumb but sometimes I really can't help it. My mind just wonders.

I also wish I did more during winter break. 6 weeks went by way too fast. Even if it was little things like helping my mom around the house or picking up my brothers from school, I wish I was more productive.

I hope my mentality changes and I become more positive soon. After all, time isn't money but is YOUR life and once it passes you don't get it back. Don't want to waste time, which is going by too fast already, with misunderstandings, over analyzing and being unproductive.

Goodbye Winter break. You've been too good to me.

the nehemiah band- press into you.

When my soul is empty,
When there is no song to sing.
When all I feel is nothing,
When I'm tired, when I'm weak.
I will seek to find
the author of my life.

It's in times like this that I can prove
my undying passion for you.
When emotions run dry,
when there is no holy cry.
I will run blindly.
I'll press into you.

When I feel so alone
and my soul begins to groan
I will close my eyes
for I dare not compromise
my faith.

It's in times like this
when the world will come
and tempt me to just give you up.
But I decided to trust
completely in your blood.
I will run blindly.
I'll press into you.

daily manna

Deuteronomy 8:2-5 2 Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. 3 He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD. 4 Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years. 5 Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the LORD your God disciplines you.

Isn't it interesting how God gave his people manna daily? Not weekly or monthly but daily. It was always just enough to last throughout the day and the following day he would bless his people with just the right amount for that day. I personally believe he did this because he wanted his people to be dependent on him.

With recent events that have occurred, I realized that I am not dependent on God. I'm so comfortable with everything that I have that when a problem arose I didn't know how to depend on him. Instead of trusting that he had everything under control, I started making plans B and C. In the end, he provided with just enough of what I needed- my daily manna. I need to be more dependent on him.

p.s. I had a blast learning how to snowboard + spending time with people this past week. Super grateful for great company, yummy food, free housing and spending less than $50 for 3 days.

musiq soulchild ft mary j blige- if you leave.

Musiq Soulchild - If U Leave (Feat. Mary J. Blige).mp3 | Music Upload

i'm addicted to music. no matter how i'm feeling, i can turn on my itouch or open up my itunes account for an instant 4 minute escape to another world. i love how artists can capture their emotions and bring them to life every time their song is played. it can bring comfort through the relatable emotions the artist portrays or it can just help one get their mind off a situation. it can sometimes give rest and sometimes bring hype. whether it be for these reasons or if it's simply for leisure, it's the perfect quick fix when i need some "me" time.

twenty ten.

2010 sounds like such a futuristic year.. or is it a futuristic year and it just doesn't seem futuristic because its now the present?

a new year, or a new decade in this case, comes with new resolutions. i have quite a few but i think they're completely do-able. i think the secret isn't being too specific (3.8 gpa) or too general (lose weight), rather a process that you can keep yourself accountable to.

i cleaned out my desk today and ended up going through a bunch of old things from high school. after reading through my old journals, cards, letters i realized how much God loves me. seeing how immature and angry i was makes me laugh but at the same time so grateful to see how God has helped me grow and how he has healed. i know theres a lot more growing and healing to be done and hopefully in a few years from now i can look through the journal i'm currently writing in and be able to laugh and be even more grateful for the growth that i will go through.

one fact that was reaffirmed: our God never changes, he never fails, his grace is always more than enough and he forever loves.