I'm starting school tomorrow and I've got a bunch of mixed feelings about it. I think I've become way too comfortable with being home and just seeing people that I want to see. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against anybody but I'm just not too excited to jump into seeing a million people a day. Call me crazy but I think I'm going through a phase where I just don't want to be that social. I just want to be with the select few that I'm comfortable with and I don't want to deal with putting up different faces or watching what I say. Am I the only crazy one that goes through this?
Maybe its because I know there are unspoken things I need to face. I don't know what to expect with this semester. I've been spending the past few nights staying up and over analyzing the best and worst scenarios that can happen. I know it's so dumb but sometimes I really can't help it. My mind just wonders.
I also wish I did more during winter break. 6 weeks went by way too fast. Even if it was little things like helping my mom around the house or picking up my brothers from school, I wish I was more productive.
I hope my mentality changes and I become more positive soon. After all, time isn't money but is YOUR life and once it passes you don't get it back. Don't want to waste time, which is going by too fast already, with misunderstandings, over analyzing and being unproductive.
Goodbye Winter break. You've been too good to me.
